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loving and living

  What is the best thing that’s happened to you this year?  this year the best thing thats happened fo rm is quitting Country's and getting away from a place that no longer serves me. I wasn't growing or evolving. I'm 41 I might not have a college education, however i learn fast, and i love growing learning newer things. Countrys and service industry is so easy. Once you apply to it and know the method to the madness. I took a week of and found something different it's retail, but for dudes. Harbor Freight I'm excited for the way the world is just really shitty right now that this is the way for me, getting away from the food industry  business.  I am so grateful for all that has been handed to in the past two years. This is a wonderful day. I have never seen this one before.” Maya Angelou

Learning to be Vulnerable

The moment that you feel that, just possibly you're walking down the street naked, exposing too much of your heart and your mind and what exists on the inside, showing too much of yourself. That's the mom ent you may be starting to get it right.- Neil Gaiman In the last three months Ive: -moved into into my new home on some handmedown acres. -I weaned off my antidepressants, 150mg no longer numb -Addie my youngest daughter moved in with her dad in Va.   -I lost a best friend of years to a choice of going to a concert. -I quit my job at countrys bbq -I've gained and lost the same 15 pounds, going thru menopause -I started going to therapy I'm a good woman, I've been naive before, I've been crazy before, Ive done wrong to people who've done right by me, I've done right to people who have done wrong by me, it's life, you grow, you smarten up, Get better, and just want peace

I am here I ramble

 She loves maryjane but can't start the day without a cup of coffee, just creamer. She likes breakfast dinner and likes to get dressed up to just get undressed again some of her favorite days are spent entirely in pjs. other days surrounded by those that make her smile. she loves her peace and happiness she has learned to live life by her own untamed rules. Dear Tasha:  I want you myself to be grateful for all the good, bad and the ugly. I am grateful for the strength to endure al that I do for my little family. all of it. What's meant for me will come and stay. I will not have to force it and feel desperate about it. Allow myself to feel the inner peace so that you, me; Tasha can be the best version of myself into each and evry moment.  I am a very patient person. And i give plenty of seconf chances, but i'm not a saint, I have my limits. I hope that i never regeret anything that becomes such an important part of the journey of finding peace and happiness. Never regret goi